Sunday, January 26, 2014

self introduction nihongo

私のアーティストとしてのスキルをフルに活用したい、そしてフィリピンと日本に於いて、他のトランス女性のNGOがどのように活動をしているか、またコミュニティー内のトランスジェンダーの女性をどのように力づけているかを学びたいと思いAPIフェローシップに申請しました。 フィリピンには、長年にわたってトランス女性のために活動している団体ATPがあります。この団体のトランス女性のコミュニティへの関わり方、そして、彼女たちの権利を求める運動のやり方について私は特に興味をひかれました。
それとは別に、日本に於いても、トランスの人々が人生の中でどのような困難を経験してきているかを表現したあるTV番組が、日本の人々のトランスの人々への見方に対して好影響を及ぼし、トランスのコミュニティーがより尊厳と敬意を持って扱われるようになったように、トランスジェンダーの市民と彼女・彼らの権利をめぐるパラダイムシフトが起こってきています。 私は、この二つの国でこれから経験することを、学習ツール、視覚的な体験談、イラスト、そして絵画などの作品を通じて表現し、最終的に展示会を開くことを希望しています。 私は、私の視覚的に物語を表現するスキルを使って、マレーシアでの私自身のトランス女性としての経験と、フィリピンと日本でこれから学ぶことを絵や漫画などの形で他の人々と共有していきたいと考えています。
APIフェローシップを機会に、私はそれぞれの国で学んだことをマレーシアのトランス女性のためのエンパワーメントプログラムに組み込み、全ての人々にとってのより良い世界の実現に貢献していきたいです。

Saturday, January 25, 2014

1st time

before i settle down and immerse with the local lifestream i think i should record some of the 1st time thing that i experience because it is a big deal personally. I always wanted or dream of living in Japan long time ago, and never thought it came through 30 years over later ^_^

1st time taking bus in Japan
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1st time taking train in Japan














1st time going to a bar (Nantoka bar)














1st time eating local Vegan pie



















1st time using heater



















1st time eating Japanese homecook meal (dinner) stayover at Genmai san's














1st time eating Japanese homecook meal (breakfast) stayover at Genmai san's














1st time encounter Gay/Lesbian/Queer mangas, stayover at Genmai san's



















1st time going to infoshop Irregular Rythm Asylum (IRA) in Shibuya














1st time buying medicine (for head,nose,throat)



















1st time take out dinner (2 Onigiri from Konbini)














1st time buying coffee from vending machine



















1st time going to Waseda university (following Genmai san to a lectures by a gay professor, the 1st one who organize Pink Dot Okinawa) based on Singapore's Pink Dot



















1st time buying coughing medicine from a Pharmacy



















1st time buying a mug (for coffee or tea)



















1st time ....






hybernating

Today is hybernating day, yesterday i felt like i've overspend some yen so, during no outing days is the best day you buy cheap onigi from the konbini. It's the best time to safe some Yen. When outing its best to eat slightly nice food together with friends. Downloading photos from 3 days ago and start to resizing them. This morning also i realized there are some blood in my flu, then google nose bleed in winter and unnderstood right away the dry air in my room and no humidity. 5 oclock here feels like 7pm in malaisea....



Jan 24 Fri
Today, woke up early or more like sleep,awake,sleep,awake…talk to Genmai san on fb, he's feeling better since yesterday. Yesterday he went to IRA alone, and because i don't have a phone, i only see his message later when I'm back at home. I said, i just comeback all the way walking from Asagaya station and a bit tired to venture out to Shibuya or to IRA. Then he ask wether I'm free so can hang out a bit and meet up for coffee at 5pm today, Yay, at least got some activity. He plan to have a coffee and ask me to join him for his LGBT church choir singing??? Let's see how it goes…
Just now get to talk to Sam san, an American woman who's doing her PHD here about literature and feminism? and we share about the situation from Japan,Malaysia,Philipppines, South East Asean, Korean, American, etc etc, the society here, where to shop for tall people, etc etc
It's nice to hear hear that here in CGS (center of Gender Studies) is like an example for other universities to copy their resources. Like what kind of books, manga, other gender related stuff that they have etc)


Jan23 Thu
have a conversation with Rayna about registering to local municipal council for foreigners and suddenly feel alike walking and start to walk from Koenji to Asagaya station  looking for the Yakusho(District Ward Office) to register for my whereabout ( its a must for gaikokujinn?/visitor), went quite smoothly, fill the form halfway, help by an assistant who work there, take number and wait just like a typical government office. Meet the officer,a middle age woman, quite thin maybe she's in her early or mid 40s? asking some questions regarding the home address, she printed a map of the house and pointed at the map to double confirm, i mention Matsumoto san, and she found the record and agreed. Asking wether i stay alone in a room, said yes, bla, bla, bla, then done. Got a receipt, and left the building which is closing maybe around 530/6pm. Walking back all the way to Koenji, and went back to the same Soba shop the night before and eat the same thing, because its simple and delicious, Oishikatta desu~ i feel like its the only right thing to eat in a cold or weather like this. Walking back home and stop by at this shop where they sell all this rock tshirts and found all the original band shirts that i wanted to buy from Metallica,Megadeth,NOFX, other punk bands tshirts.
So awesome, the only thing is 1 shirt costs RM100 or 3300Yen. Then thinking if i were to buy 1, what would it be? Metallica Ride the Lightning? Megadeth? Slayer south of heaven? NOFX? Fatwreck? Sonic Youth? Black Flag? Misfits? et etc U_U'

Jan22 Wed
Sitting around in room almost the whole day then feel like walking, and walk slowly around Koenji and venture our slightly further and found a lot of interesting shop, nicely design, thrift shops, recycled or used clothing shops, a 100yen shop and also a nice Ramenshop and eat there for dinner, bc its considered cheap? 300yen (rm10) and it taste so nice in the middle of the night, phew~



































Monday, January 20, 2014

to Mitaka/ICU/CGS and back

Woke up this morning. felt like shit because of non-stop coughing last night. Then took shower (for the 2nd time here in Jpn), extremely hot water vs extremely cold weather outside, feels great. Mission today is to go to Mitaka and then to ICU (International Christian University), or CGS (Center for Gender Studies) department my host here. Fairly the whole trip was quite smooth, the bus company person was very helpful in pointing me in the right direction, what bus to take and the courage towards the unknown. Mitaka seems like a peaceful small town. Finally found ICU and asking some people and they pointing me to the right direction. I manage to come 1 hour early (from Ikoma sensei free time) and get to talk to her about my experience in the Philippines and Malaysia. Then she brought me to the CGS (Center for Gender Studies) and introduce to the members around. Get to know a transman, the first one i met here in Japan. He shares his story and i found his story quite similar to other transmen or transgender people like hate to be called the opposite gender label etc, his bad experience in some of the manga club where the men are sexist and he also shares his own manga about being transgender people in Japan. His work have a strong traditional manga looks. He also have done his mastectomy here in Japan. Then he he bit Odaijini and left pretty quickly. Then i ask the CGS people how to go back to Mitaka, and was told go to Musashisakai station which is more faster, its just another station before Mitaka. Found the station and ride back to Koenji. Walk back to Onigiri konbini, bought some Onigiri for dinner, 1 Onigiri is 180Yen (RM6) x2 = dinner. Went back to Village Vanguard and bought a mug (from the recce we did yesterday). Village Vanguard has tons of quirky and cool stuff. I feel like that's the place to go before leaving Japan and have extra money. Found a big pharmacy and bought the coughing tablet and head back home.

Yesterday i stayed overnight again at Genmai san house, it was real fun. The night before we met at Koenji station they fetch me and i bought some snacks and the hot coffee from the vending machine.
We talk and eat the healthy junkfood? from the Konbini and talk about stuff, Genmai san performing some song which is awesome. Then we slept at around 1 or 2am. Woke up and clean the house because the plan was to travel in a group with 2 other friends Anna san and Akama san that came later to have a lunch together and we went straight to Nishi Ogikubo station where Genmai san meeting his professor, she's a hero for him. After awhile at Genmai san's house i feel like he's very awesome gay person i've met. He studies or read and studies, researching about gender, he play cool songs on guitar, he cook very well, Izu san his partner was cared for by him, he's just a beautiful human being
and he also helping me connect with more people here in Japan.